This stupid "cold" is getting on my nerves. Been trying every medication I could lay my hands on at home, and yet I can't shake it off. I'm still hacking away, sometimes to the point where I inadvertently stimulate my gag reflex (hence the retching and the occasional toilet-rush). I still suffer from lightheadedness and headaches, but they are thankfully getting better. My throat still burns, perhaps not as severe as the day before....but who would have thought that it would spread to my larynx? My older cousin wasn't inflicted with this when he had it!
Curse this laryngitis. I can't voice my opinions properly, my intonation's way off the mark, Matt thinks I sound cartoonish with my feeble squeaks.... have you seen Disney's The Emperor's New Groove? Right now I sound a bit like that evil Grand Vizier after she was transformed into a kitten. Hmmm on second thoughts, maybe not. Mine's more muffled. Dad says I better not talk for the next 2 days or so....but how can I stay still? I can't!!
Dammit....
I WANT MY VOICE BACK!!!! I FEEL INCAPACITATED WITHOUT IT. I WANT TO HAVE A DECENT NIGHT'S SLEEP NOT DISRUPTED BY COUGHING "SPREES" EVERY 20-30 MINUTES. I HATE THE FACT THAT I LOOK AND FEEL SO GOD DAMN TIRED EVERY MORNING FOR THE PAST 3 DAYS. I CAN'T FOCUS PROPERLY IN CLASS. I CONSUMED ABOUT 6-8 LOZENGES IN THE MORNINGS TO STIFFLE MY COUGHS, AND ANOTHER 3-4 IN THE AFTERNOONS, WHENEVER THERE IS A TUTE/CASE PRESENTATION. I WANT TO WALK ABOUT AND ENJOY SPRING OUTDOORS - IT'S SO BEAUTIFUL OUT THERE! I'M GETTING CRANKIER JUST THINKING OF THE THINGS I'M MISSING OUT ON AND I HATE THIS NEGATIVE VIBE I'M GENERATING!!!
I just want to get well soon....
[NOTE TO SELF: If I could channel my anger into something more useful, like revising Emergency Med and Psych, for instance. Heck, we've got 6 weeks to go before our exams... o_O]
Labels: I-Me-Myself
