In less than 24 hours, I'll be placed on the so-called "hot-seat" at Lovell Theatre, where I shall present a long-case for a consultant (or two) and my cohort, followed by a 10-15 minute discussion/questioning session.
I knew what I was getting myself into when I first raised my hand two weeks ago. It meant more work for me, more "patient-scouting" to do, and lots of reading. Nevertheless, it was also a chance to push boundaries, to see how far I could go before I break. To conquer fear.
I never liked speaking in public, more so in front of people who are, on the whole, far superior intellectually than me. I hate to think of the worst, but I am (unfortunately) at this very moment.
So yes, you could say that I am petrified - of failing and "public" humiliation.
I have my case ready - a neurological one. Not perfect, but hopefully presentable. Considering neurology IS my weakest link, how did I ever decide on this case is still beyond me.
On the brighter side, this is where I can see how far have I gone since I started clinicals last July/August.
Sigh.
Note to self: THINK POSITIVE YUEN, GODAMMIT!!!
More updates tomorrow, after presentation.
