This is definitely one of those bad days. Bro is currently down with some diarrhoea and fever; probably due to food poisoning. Dad is still in Teluk Intan, watching over Grandma, whose condition fluctuated in the last 24 hours....even bordering on death in the morning. Despite claiming to be fit and healthy, I can tell that Dad is not at all well - deprived of sleep, the constant worries, his fears. Sis is extremely stressed too in the last couple of days...poor girl. Mom is also overwhelmed; worrying about bro, sis, and Dad.
I always thought that problems are problems only when one perceived them to be. But what's eating me now is the fact that every 'issue' I have just comes barging in one after another! It's incredibly taxing, watching your problems grow day after day. I know that positive thinking will do me good at a time like this, but how the (hell) am I suppose to feel good, when everything feels so (goddamn) rotten??!!!
Try as I might, I cannot focus on anything, be it my studies, work, friends or social affairs. Presentation's tomorrow, exam's in three days, I am well aware that I'll be screwed if I blow the whole thing but I STILL CANNOT CONCENTRATE ON MY GOD-FORSAKEN WORK!!!
Is this some kind of test?? Whatever it is, you can bet that I am not amused at all.
Optimisim is definitely overrated on this one.
Have a nice day anyway. May yours be better than mine.
